Old giggles....

I got up after awaking from a weird dream; it was a bad dream but it was a good dream as well. I recall the dream as me flying in an airplane along with family and church members and us losing flight because we sail off to the air from a hangar actually off a freeway with cars and buses, bobbing and weaving in traffic at a fast pace. I can remember the pilot having the voice of Angel, my stepcousin. I can recall the plane trying to glide in the air but somehow the path was not provided for that be possible. I was at the very tip of the plane; near the landing gear area and as the plane was losing balance I recall God telling me with his infinite wisdom, whatever you do, don't fall into the cold water. I glanced at the thought that those people in the back of the plane were going to not only die but hit that water hard once the plane slams. As God continue to guide me and show me direction in the dream, he led us near a "fence" and I was able to grasp the "fence" me and someone else who appeared to be Sean "Diddy" Combs. I remember hanging on the fence in my candid-Spideresque manner. I remember the plane falling still and sailing away from where I landed. I spoke out the words I love you to Sean because that is what God revealed to me once the spirit fell into my heart. I did not want to die. I immediately remembered my mother and grandmother and church members, the need to try and help them as soon as possible. As I got close to the site where the plane crashed, I can see the people being brought up from the water, and my dear mother was being air-lifted to safety, I stretched out my hands and carried her like an infant in my arms. She appeared to be in shock but she was actually faced with amnesia from the crash, she did not recognize me, I then murmured still full of joy and the spirit of God filling my chest, "I am your son." She could not place me in her memory, I had to stress to her, you have two sons and one granddaughter. She did not understand. My grandmother stood off away from me, alright and so were so many others I recognized from the church. I could not do nothing but Praise God for His mighty acts. What a God we serve. I can remember that "fence" showing up just when I need it most and it kept me from dangers, seen and unseen. So many times God showed up and showed out in my life. I thank him for being a fence all around me -every day. I awoken from the dream in prayer and I continued to fast as we were directed from church on the previous night in honor of our pastor. I felt so good awaking in God's presence-- alone in His presence.
Went over Aunt Jessie's place and sat there for most of the evening until about 11pm. We laughed about old times, me and Nayosha and Brenda- all related to how we all used to get excited about Jesus when we had the Children of God Fellowship Ministries up and running over 10 years ago. I can see how I got to this point in my life. It all started so early on and it grew into happy and sad times. I am blessed with a daughter since then and so many other accomplishments that I can say I appreciate my life. God has truly been good to ME. Looking back and laughing at the good times made me feel proud.

New Day....

Today is the day I can officially add that I am unemployed... feels good to have time to reflect and relax and recuperate and also prepare for a new beginning in the work force. Maybe God will prepare my walk to do something more with the church or something else. I pray that these coming day are bountiful, giving me more to do. Later on I went to put all of my suits in the cleaners and got a few pairs of pants altered at the tailor. (Tuesday I had purchased another grey suit for church on Sunday). I think I took everyone of them out of my closet to get cleaned and pressed. I like the fall and going to church looking nice. Next, I went to get a haircut and then headed home to catch up on Desperate Housewives which got interrupted, I forgot I had to go to church tonight for prayer service. Pastor Byrd was being put into surgery on the next day, we prayed him better hopefully. Left the church and went to the mall with Mark for a few items. Came home and winded down started watching Desperate Housewives again and fell asleep.

Toni! Toni! Toni!.....

The day has finally arrived and I am excited-Toni Braxton's album drops--- 9/27/05. Excited!!!

Now this is my 3rd favorite female R&B artist. I don't care what no one says about her she does for me on the sexy side of music and when you need "another sad love song".

ALBUM IN STORES NOW!!!

She was on Regis and Kelly this morning she did a fairly well job-- selling sex, the mic was a little off though.
Decided to come into work a little later, stopped at Walmart to pick up the CD of the day, of course, Toni-- called Rick to schedule a dinner date and a night of Toni and wine... (Forgot to mention he called about 1:45 to let me know he was home and safely-- such a sweetie). He is just as excited for the CD dropping as I am. Can't wait to enjoy that with him.
Got to work and went straight to lunch with the EZ Pay Shared Finance group, very nice lunch.... sent out my last email to the usual crew who hit me up daily. Taking my last breath in the office right now, and will be officially walking out the door soon..last day!!!!. catch ya later.

Monday matters.....

God allowed me to be calm today... nothing more, nothing less.

TWO FRIENDS

TWO FRIENDS
A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face.The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.
They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BLESSINGS IN STONE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. Take the time to live! Do not value the THINGS you have in your life. But value WHO you have in your life!

Heart to Heart

After work yesterday, decided to shop for my grandmother and aunts, they absolutely adored the ensemble of clothes and hats I put together for our church's 4th Annual Men and Women's Day on first Sunday in October (Light gray and purple). I try hard to make them as happy as possible for these are some hard times for them; having financial difficulties and just trying to enjoy their activities i.e. fishing. That is helping them to cope in this crazy world during perilous times. God has really sustained and kept them. I enjoy being a blessing to them when possible.

"Create in Me a Clean Heart and purify me.... " (I sing)

An acronym for the HEART by Troy D. Baxter

Introduction:
Honesty is the best policy as they say but I think that is the infinite beginning of a foundation with anyone whom you are willing to seek out in life whether it be in friendship or a life partner. You must be honest. I am not hiding anything from anyone during these latter days, it makes confusion come about.

Honesty- Be as truthful as you would like someone else to be to you; it matters

Excellence- Strive for the best, even when you can't but give it your all. Obedience is better than sacrifice.

Acknowledgement- Make someone know you appreciate them, don't sweat the small stuff. Making someone's life happy, open up a door in their lives every once in a while. Impressions last.

Respect- The most intricate part of getting along with someone. Honor them even when it does not call for it, if not, you will only embarrass yourself.

Trust- the ultimate feeling and emotion; knowing someone can be depended upon in good and rough times. Not forsaking the bond of the other elements it takes to build your HEART.

One Voice: Syleena Johnson

Of all the artists that I absolutely love, she came in and batted fourth. Not to place anyone else aside but she absolutely does it for me. Hands down. She taps into my spirit world, whether she sings on God, love, sex, or the flesh. Her lyrics are just true and straight to the point without a chaser.

Check out all the albums:
Love Hangover (independently released)
Chapter 1: Love, Pain and Forgiveness
Chapter 2: The Voice
Chapter 3: The Flesh


Love ya, Syleena.

Evolution

I started with evolution as a title today going forward generally because I wanted to re-examine and re-evaluate my life as a whole. I can truly say that I've been blessed when I look back over the course of these 29 years and 24 days. God has truly been good to me. I can go on and on about how he constantly blessed me but that will take up this entire blog.
Looking back I can say I have matured in terms of my outlook on life and what has been applied to it. I am inspired more. My path has taken a turn or two. I am discovering more of who I want to become each day. And as I approach "30", I can see the layers shedding and more being applied to make me strong. I have taken on a few traits, in them, I see change. "Without change, how can one grow".
Patience is becoming so dear to me these days.
I feel Beautiful. Smart. More reserved. Spiritual with a new shape. Handsome. Charming. Sexy (I can now feel that without being modest).
I am Man.


"When I was a child, I spoke and thought as a child, but when I became a Man, old things are passed away".

Oprah's 20th Season

Today is the day.. It has finally arrived, the 20th season of Oprah.
I am excited not only because I love her so much but because of who she is and what she means to my life in terms of her passion for helping to heal the world. Not just women, but all humanity, all walks of life. I find comfort in tuning in to watch her show. I try and deposit some great ideas and insight from whatever topic she covers. Although most of the topics are based around women empowerment and health, she brings comfort to my soul. I feel like I am actually viewing an Angel (no pun intended). She is THE WOMAN. Beautiful spirit, soft heart and conditioned as a role model. She is without void or error through my eyes. I love "O". Here is to twenty more years.