Walking without Walking Away

In the words of Mary J. Blige's new smash, "Be Without You", ( from the album dropping on December 20, 2005 entitled "The Breakthrough")-- "Chemistry was crazy from the git go, neither one of us knew why... Too strong for too long, And I can't Be Without You baby... And I'll be waitin' up until you get home, Cause I can't sleep Without you baby".

In every sense of that phrase, I have not been faithful towards my feelings for someone lately. No matter what angle I turn or what path I take, I find myself constantly thinking about them.

Feelings have a funny way of living within us, but the more we suppress them, things show up in our dreams and even in little songs that come on the radio or tube, some even pop into our heads. Why do I toss at night? Why do I think so hard at times? Why does the slightest thing remind me of them? What can I do to get closer to them for a moment? Will they ever reach out to me? Do they feel the same way?

Why is so hard to be truthful to yourself when your heart knows best? Why are men so "wishy-washy" when it comes to plugging the right emotions into a relationship? Why do we have to continuously play tag or pull at our heart strings? Love is not a game. Love needs to be told and shared, even if it is not at the right time or moment. Love should not be taught how to become a depressant in our lives. Love just is. It breathes in all of us.

We walk or we may run-- our heart still wants us to be honest. Our hearts won't help us walk away, it gives us a lead on healing whether good or bad.

It is safe to say "I love you"-even if it hurts you in the long run.